This weekend has brought a pretty intense wave of horniness and I’m reviling in it by self locking my cock yesterday afternoon. As I have to head to Chicago today for work, I’m finding myself here at the airport horny as fuck.
It started yesterday morning with the intense need to put a plug up my ass. Typically when I play with my hole, I lock my cock in its cage. This is mostly because if I don’t then I jerk off pretty quickly, and I want to prolong the wonderful sensations in my hole as long as I can. The cage keeps me from cumming from jerking off, and allows me to focus on the pleasure of stimulating my hole with my large collection of toys.
Once the cage was locked, the strong slutty, submissive feelings started to rise to the surface causing me to wear my own self-selected boy uniform around the house while I slowly got some chores done. The uniform consists of the following:
- chastity cage
- rubber jockstrap
- leather harness
- leather collar
- butt plug of some kind
- tall socks
- tall leather boots
- either nipple suckers or nipple clamps for periods of time
This uniform makes me feel super submissive, horny, slutty, and exposed. It’s a uniform that I hope a man sees me in and starts to use me. It could be anything, really. Just want to be used.
Eventually, I got the chores I needed to get done for the day, and really started to dive deeper into my horny, submissive state. After putting a slightly larger plug in, I hooded myself, and lied down to let me self float around in the feelings.
My hole full. Pleasantly stretched causing my hole to twitch every now and then, clamping down in a futile effort to evacuate the plug to no avail causing more intense sensations that made my cock strain against its cage.
My cock locked away and hidden under the jockstrap. Don’t need a cock when you have a hole to stimulate and pleasure. But I like the feeling of the reminder that it’s locked. Leaking to fill the jockstrap, a sign that clearly I’m enjoying myself.
My nipples sensitive from a day of wearing nipple suckers. I gentlely play with them, causing my hole to clamp down and my cock to strain, tying it all together.
The hood hiding the distractions. Focusing my mind on the moment. The feelings. The sensations. The want to be bound and played with grows stronger, and my mind starts to fantasize scenes and men using me.
Through the rest of the evening I continue to mostly play with my hole. It’s nice and loose. Sensitive in the most delightful ways. I’m able it get some of my larger toys in my hole that I have never been able to. At the peak of ass ecstasy from fucking myself with a larger dildo, I finally cum hands free with my vibrator on my locked cock. Filling it with cum and a wonderful sloshy feelinging. I lay there with continuing with the vibrator and just enjoy it all, eventually showering and grabbing some foods.
Following this whole thing, it has gotten me thinking more about what I’m looking for from kinks and fetishes plays and interactions. For me, it is all very tightly coupled with sex of some kind. It’s coupled with sensations and stimulation. It’s very much a bedroom thing for me. The appeal of D/s outside of sexual stuff is pretty low.
If I were to boil it down, I would like to be a human sex toy for men’s pleasure. A boy to be sexually used.
I would be open to exploring aspects of of D/s play outside of the bedroom, but I feel that I haven’t found the right person to explore this with. The sex aspect of it is definitely where my interests go first, and more intensely.
I’m finishing writing this on the plane to Chicago, and I definitely have more thoughts and feelings on this. But I need to organize those thoughts better before writing them out. But my cock is twitching in its cage from writing this, and thinking about being naked, vulnerable, and submitting myself to a Sir.